Dedicated to people who care about me.

Hello! 

This post is dedicated to friends that care for me deep down. I know who you are and you know too. Words can't describe how thankful I am to have friends by my side when bad things happened to me. Although the whole world sort of dislike me coz of the rumours but "clean people stay clean", rumours will fade soon. 

To be honest...

I am not a very good person (can be a bit emotional), nor a very good friend. But I'm blessed to have friends that are more than what I think they are. Although they don't support me directly because they do not want to get involve in the drama, but they believe me at least that's what I just need. 

 

To continue...

I believe everything happens for a reason. Bad things in life happen, to let you learn from it and helps you look more clearly who are the ones who are always there. There's a slight difference of who are there from the start and who are there all along. I get kind of pissed or sad when I realised who was. You never know right? 

Just like the old sayings "Expectation leads to disappointment."

I guess part of it is because I expect too much from others but they let me down all the time. I believe in them but all I get was betrayal and the feeling of being dumped behind. Tell me, what hurts more than losing 2 best friends at once? Am I suppose to be happy because I finally saw how "deep" our friendship is? Which is just as deep as a layer of water on the floor. 

What am I suppose to do

Trust is so important between every relationship. Do not ever break the trust wall I have on you. I'm sorry to say that I do not care anymore, as much as I appreciate such friend like you but you don't really take our friendship serious and I mean c'mon, if you know me well enough to be my best friend, you would trust me right? Instead of all the rumours. I understand sometimes there could be situations where you are confused and do not know who to trust. But back to the point, "If you were my best friend, you would know me well enough to believe me and stand by me." 

Therefore.

Thank you for always being there for me and believe in me. Friends like you means a lot in my life. When I fall, it hurts, but at least I know who's there laughing and who's there giving me a hand. I appreciate that hand you held out to me and I would definitely need your shoulder to hang on too. Love you so much.