What happened; 0510-0924

Back to happier days with you, everything seems so easy, because we were happy. Happiness make everything seems possible. I used to think we were stronger than this. I thought we can be okay. Is it because we started off as strangers? We didn't quite know each other well. That was the start, days where we will eventually think of each other, days where I cross your mind and you cross mine. Now that I think back, I couldn't quite remember how it started. Because at that moment, all that matters is how happy I am when I'm with you. 

"You looked me in the eye and whispered in my ear "I love you". Were you just kidding me? This thing is breaking down, we almost never speak. I don't feel welcomed anymore. Baby, what happened please tell me. Cause one second it was perfect and now you're halfway out the door. And I stare at the phone, you still hasn't called, and then I feel so low, can't feel nothing at all. And I flashback to when you said forever and always.

Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest that made you run and hide like a scared little boy? I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minute. Now I'm not so sure.

So here's to everything, coming down to nothing. Here's to silence that cuts me to the core. Where is this going? Thought I knew for a minute. But I don't any more.

You didn't mean it. I don't think so. Back up, baby, back up, did you forget everything? Back up, baby, did you forget everything???

You didn't mean it when you said forever and always." 

Time flies, maybe we got lost in translation or maybe I asked for too much. As we gone through more and more arguments, pointless in the end. We never really talked through what kind of relationship we wanted. Things got worse. I'm tired of doing what I'm doing. You're tired. Maybe it's the memory of us keeps me going on, telling myself to hold on, pretending it's going to be fine. But as you flew even further, I got lost. Then you told me it's better if I go back to where I'm at? Did you have to do this? Falling from so high to the bottom. Tell me? How can I possibly be okay. I thought I could handle the answer but I can't. Even the thought of it hurts me. How could I ever live through this? 

"The more I think about it now, the less I know. All I know is that you drove us off the road. All you had to do was stay." 

"Why did you have to lock me out when I let you in?"

"People like me are gone forever when you say goodbye."

"Let me remind you, this was what you wanted. You were all I wanted. But not like this." 

-Giselle