Stucked
I'm stuck between "I want to talk to you" and "I need to get over you" so it's just another bad night again. Late nights made me think of him a lot, it was like a kaleidoscope full of memories between us. And I'm in there going through everything, having a rough time.
I think that I need to learn to let go of the good to find the better. Yes, every time i think of you or even saw you in person, i felt like as if someone had took my breath and that my heart does not function anymore, time pauses and i can't breathe, someone took it and threw it onto the cold hard ground. As fragile as it seems, breaking into a thousand pieces, but i don't feel any pain because i have suffered much more than the pain i could feel. My soul no longer feels anything, everything i'm going through right now is just an emotion. A short period of emotional feeling. Faking smiles, laughing so hard because i forget how it was to be happy.
Each day, i would reach school early in the morning, and pass by the school cafeteria, within all the crowded tables, my eyes would search for your face as if i knew you were there. And then a sudden sadness came in because i just remembered, we don't talk anymore. I wanted to talk to you so badly. For sure, i wasn't so desperate in reality. I just miss talking to you . I think that i just need you.
Going through all this, no one said it was easy. We don't forget the pain, we just get used to it. The pain is always going to be there. Heartbreaks, that's what i deserve for not appreciating you when you were still here, regrets and mistakes our memories make. All i wanted to do now is to learn "how to forgive" so that i can "forget".
Ever heard of the quote "forgive to forget"
if you kept on remembering the bad things that had already happened and unwilling to forgive it. You will never forget. So stop telling yourself to forget, teach yourself to forgive. It just doesn't goes back to the way it was before even though you have forgotten it.
This post is dedicated to myself. Been saving lots of drafts in my blog posts lately, i just don't feel like posting.
I think that I need to learn to let go of the good to find the better. Yes, every time i think of you or even saw you in person, i felt like as if someone had took my breath and that my heart does not function anymore, time pauses and i can't breathe, someone took it and threw it onto the cold hard ground. As fragile as it seems, breaking into a thousand pieces, but i don't feel any pain because i have suffered much more than the pain i could feel. My soul no longer feels anything, everything i'm going through right now is just an emotion. A short period of emotional feeling. Faking smiles, laughing so hard because i forget how it was to be happy.
Each day, i would reach school early in the morning, and pass by the school cafeteria, within all the crowded tables, my eyes would search for your face as if i knew you were there. And then a sudden sadness came in because i just remembered, we don't talk anymore. I wanted to talk to you so badly. For sure, i wasn't so desperate in reality. I just miss talking to you . I think that i just need you.
Going through all this, no one said it was easy. We don't forget the pain, we just get used to it. The pain is always going to be there. Heartbreaks, that's what i deserve for not appreciating you when you were still here, regrets and mistakes our memories make. All i wanted to do now is to learn "how to forgive" so that i can "forget".
Ever heard of the quote "forgive to forget"
if you kept on remembering the bad things that had already happened and unwilling to forgive it. You will never forget. So stop telling yourself to forget, teach yourself to forgive. It just doesn't goes back to the way it was before even though you have forgotten it.
This post is dedicated to myself. Been saving lots of drafts in my blog posts lately, i just don't feel like posting.
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